First day of my Life...

Tomorrow I am Going to attempt to get my arse back into some form of schooling, Be it an Online graduation plan or Some sort of GED Completion course. I just recently put a hold on trying to find full-time employment I just thought that I should think more about furthering my Career then Working a minimum wage Job for the rest of my life.

Today I actually went to he school and apparently I am supposed to apply online Only, Even though I travelled all this way, In my opinion They could have done it their. So I just waited for My girlfriend to get out of her Exams.

One Thing that has always terrified me is failing, I failed my drivers test three times and has on countless occasions pulled out of classes. I just feel like I am my own worst enemy some times, When I do not succeed at a certain task I totally rip my self apart for it, I hate my self for failures of my past and I only Blame my self for single handily screwing up my education, Even when There were other fractures that lead up to my initial Hiates from school I just feel that I could have been stronger. Another one of my faults is the fact that I have a very hard time making any decisions for my self, I think it might have derived from me not wanting to hurt someone due to a decision that i made..YEUP i am all messed up But I am changing my life around, Getting back to school and getting my licence are just a few that are on my list to do.

Heres to the first day of my life...

Parental Controls are Taking OVER!

I woke up This morning and hopped on my computer, I was Shocked, Confused to find out my own site has been Blocked By parental Controls. Many sites were also Blocked due to the annoyance that is Parental Controls like youtube for example, I also went to Sign Up for Online Schooling on VlN (Vancouver.Learning.Network) and To my Surprise that too had been Blocked, According To parental Controls VlN had "Adult content" and had to be Blocked..as you can Imagine, I was not very Impressed at all..

I was also Confused to find out My parental Controls had been off the whole time.

The only thing I was Alowed to Do was read an article about a German Porn star that had died undergoing a Boob Job, Now I thought "Parental Controls" Blocks Porn Related Things on the computer or at least I thought it Blocks Things you would not want a younger child to come across on the Internet...Not everything Else!

Well I will Leave you with a Screen Shot of Me and My Fine as Hell Girlfriend Chatting On web cam, Yes I am Wearing a billy Mask from the Movie "SAW". ENJOY!

You Are Fucking Perfect!

I Dedicate this song to My amazing Girlfriend, You are my best friend, My rock.I love you so much, Do not ever Think you are any thing less then fucking perfect. You have stayed by my side through the years even when times got a little rough for us. You are always their to talk to when I need someone to just listen. You are my friend when I have no Friends. You always put a smile on my face every time i look into your green eyes I am happy, happier then I have been in my whole life. I want you to know that I love you and I knew that day we first met that I never wanted to be with any one else in my life, You are my only, my everything.

I love laying in bed with you watching you play the Sims and watching Retro cartoons with you and I hope we will continue for years to come.

I hope one day you would do me the honors of marrying me... I love you.

Imaginary Beat Down!

A little comic me and my girlriend worked on a while back, it represents us very well, She kicks my butt and I stand there taking it like man..

I Often Over think about things in my head to the point where I myself is tired of hearing me talk..

Sleeping Beauty.

My Girlfriend fell asleep while we were talking on webcam, I just think she is addorable. She brightens my life everyday and I am so lucky to have her in my life. Everyday I am with her I am so happy, you are there when I need you the Most and you know just the right things to say when I am down. I love you. Now if only someone can cure MY Insomnia by just talking to me.

Sleep tight My love, Sincerly yours,

N